the theme to

i can never change a thing
can I or can't I? have I ever really tried
better yet, is there a can? cannot? a try?
or have I always just told myself I tried just to get myself to shut the fuck up
the mind is comfertable, it enjoys the situation its in with this life
but what about you, how do you feel?
don't ya feel a little bit used? your human physical body does
its been through a lot of shit for that mind of yours
time to shut IT up... you know you will, hopefully you can make it sooner then later
focus on the real, every breath of every moment of every day... the isness
live honesty as equality on earth for all beings
forgive yourself for what you have allowed, for allowing the mind to work its way into you right now
stop it, understand that its been controlling you and helping manifest the vile inequality that exists
on earth to this very day.

this is basically a place to get some "thoughts" out... I dunno what I'd call it... I guess I'm sort of talking to myself half the time and just typing as if I'd be talking/responding/forming conclusions.  if you hear what im saying, cool... if not then that's also fine.  so now you have to wonder did I say that to myself or to you, the reader.  

o.k take two, whats up
is this real or is this a fantasy?
i think you know the answer
if you dig down deep you see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel
just like you've always believed in
you just didn't know what it was you believed in
it surely wasn't some false idol placed here by the minds of humans during recent history
no, this went deeper into the realities of everything going on in the world
what we are creating is really only a desperate cry for help, everyone is scared as shit
we don't know what to do, we're cowering, frail beings and we will "protect" ourselves no matter what it
costs...
lessons are to be learned by mankind... be it the easy way or the hard way, that is the choice one has to
make.

i feel sick

wash it off

wash it down the drain

feel the weight of the past fall away

i feel ill

look directly in

burn it down to nothin'

feel the speed of the future peter out


the time is now, the only moment is here
in this second, this breath, this equilibrium of being

ride the wave at the highest point and you'll see

the sun peak out

and smile at your illuminated face

I am sickness, I am health

thought provoked by sonic vibration
was felt physically,
 metaphysically;

intense and climactic

brief and denting


..instinct..


roll over
to pull up
the covers and daydream some more

do you
ever notice
 how thoughts
can take you
places
that you recognize?

what is this then
to return to a place
that once existed,
but no longer exists
except in your mind

does this reveal
that the mind
is a harbor
and our selves,
vessels

then must not the earth
be
the sail

delusional life being lead down a path of no return,
look into the eyes of yourself to reveal the true meaning.  
what meaning you ask?
you know,
we all know
the meaning
that which is trying to be attained
through knowledge
and the human
created quest for "truth"....  
hah mere mortal, you think you can begin to understand what the real answer is?

there  is no answer,

there it is revealed,

there is no answer... no answer at all
we created that up
out of our own human minds
 which possess
no wisdom any longer.  

The real quest for knowledge
 begins when you look into your own psyche,
 the ancient shamans of old knew this...

take PSYCHOACTIVEs and look into yourself
you will see what really is true and meaningful
the earth the stars everything living on this earth...
everything is sacred.